life in the in-between place

lim·bo noun

   an uncertain period of awaiting a decision or resolution; an intermediate state or condition.

Hello dearest gentle reader…. whew!  life lately has been a shit show for lack of better words but in the words of the incomparable tisha campbell ‘im still here’— I’m in the space where I’m not sure where things are going exactly or if they’re going anywhere for that matter, but I’m ok I guess.. (insert tamera crying from the real meme)..this is fine things can be worse— it’s very crazy that within this calendar year alone I’ve been to houston, los angeles and now I’m on an extended trip in atlanta and next possibly washington within this upcoming few weeks cause I’m trying to find my place and wherever that is.

  in my last post I spoke about ghosting life if you have to figure out what’s best for you to put yourself in positions to become the best version of you and I feel that’s what I’m doing but also in my big sagittarius energy have no idea what the fuck is going on, I have unlimited tabs open (in my head) some of them are frozen— some won’t close— there is music coming from somewhere some what of an organized chaos but I’m actively trying to figure all that out and what that means for me as I get older I know I’ve been called mr. start over…still a firm believer of do it as much or as many times as you need to until you feel it right so I’m currently throwing things at the wall hope something sticks, hoping the right thing sticks.

I’ve always liked liked this term used in the cw network series the flash when barry and Iris are far apart for whatever reason they consider themselves to be each others lightning rod— like no matter what happens they’ll always find a way back to each other. I feel like in life you should always have that symbolic lightning rod to find your way back to when things go amiss— I believe I’m looking or trying to find what that is for me.

—what is that for you? what keeps you grounded or brings you back to a point of stability??