fading into obscurity..

   As I progress in life, I’ve been learning and or teaching myself to quiet (me) down what I mean by that is not necessarily being the center of attention, but I noticed that I give a lot of myself to situations that really don’t warrant it — where I find myself in a sense going above and beyond not for any accolades or praise but just cause I genuinely liked to make people happy w/ things that I do or can provide for them which then I noticed I’m stretching myself thin, giving myself to a situations that ultimately do not serve me.

I feel im a good person I strive to be as genuine to those around me and those i care for— I want to give my all —be the best version of me unapologetically best sometimes that’s not always possible then at the end of the day siting alone questions yourself—what is this doing for me?  I don’t mean for this post to be about being selfish or self-serving but when I realize as I am getting older and maturing, going through this thing called life. I want to put my self in positions to help me win, make the money I wanna make and simply be happy so sometimes for me that is fading into obscurity, taking myself away from things that may not need me going out hanging with friends just having tunnel vision on my goals and plans to be a better me for me at the end of it all

   Disappearing in some cases and for some people is deemed a bad thing when sometimes that’s all you need to do to come out on the other side bigger, better and happier than you were before —so if you have to ghost your life then I’m all for it —for you to take the time to just (do better) and be better to yourself and those around you  (out of sight out of mind)

This post is partially inspired by a song called version of me x kimbra featuring dawn richard— we all interpret music in different ways, but what I hear in this song is that I’m changing and evolving and I know there is a better version of me to come & for that alone I should stick around and advocate for myself put into work and understand that it’s not gonna be easy but giving up is just not a choice.